silveries

everything was going good i suppose.. but then, after an absolute foolish and ungrateful meeting, i just couldn’t keep my mind on my priorities. i was planning the whole week of what i’m gonna do and where i would go, and the total list of things i should do before this week ends. for now, i’m solely thinking of my ceiling-high assignments which most of it consists of work group, and truly thankful for group mates who are cooperative enough throughout the whole session, syukur alhamdulillah.

tonight was that kind of night where i feel the sky is off limits, not feeling the ground, and walls pushing in.. i called in a dear friend, kinda notice something was on sbb i kept mumbling words like errmm for like dun know how many times and couldn’t count how many sorry’s and tq’s i’ve said to him.. and again, tq. as i sit in the meeting room, practically in the dark, by the window, i just couldn’t help venting things which are bottled up inside.. and the result….. yeah, i cried.. damn! as i hung up after getting a few words of assurance (seriously appreciated what u’ve said), i was bursting into tears from where i couldn’t imagine coming from.. i felt alone in that dark room, and i remembered i use to like the dark, as it felt safe.. safe where no one could see me, only God. i tried calling yan, no answer, maybe she’s asleep… then i called my dear x-roomie, and i know she knew me long enough to tell that i was not okay and was pouring my heart out at her. she lets me cry for all i wanted, hunching on the chair in the dark room, and realized haven’t cried that hard for such a long time. we talked for a while and of course a little bit of gossip sure fills me up.. haha..

mata pun dah rasa lebam semacam jer lepas tu.. sekarang pun rasa kecik jer mata.. on my way back home, i kept thinking of what had happened, and sumtimes, yes, mmg bergenang jer rasa mata, sampai la skrg where i’m writing this blog, and dah start mengantuk.. leh ke?? to keep my mind off of what just happened, i read a book i bought last 2 weeks.. and it was hillarious at some point. there’s also going to be a movie based on the book.. the title of the book is PS I Love You.. it’s not a romance genre, mind you, it’s a chick-lit and fictional story.. and it’s completely a bizzare, hillarious, sad book.

juz yesterday i enjoyed myself out with my friend and technically still enjoying what i did for the weekends, and am looking forward for this week!~

tq for listening and appreciated it very much, my dear friends… hopefully tomorrow’s better than today.