silveries

i had so many doses of laughters, my mouth my cheeks are hurting already! today is a very very interesting and happy day for me! ahahahah.. juz bcoz today we got free lunch (july peps birthday)! no laa.. there are other small things that add up some sugar and spice to it.. even talking to one of the RE is not a hassle

first of all, i am trying to make myself to wake up very early in the morning and try to go to work early, then try and make myself to a better person.. but then sumthings juz wouldn’t change.. i’m not gonna say.. if u can’t beat them, join them.. nope.. ahahha.. stubborn me! just ignore them lor.. jahat la aku ni!

ok.. then.. we had and shared few laughters and excitement during the free lunch and juz taking pictures! even though i didn’t bring my camera, but camera phone was ok.. so i took a few pics la.. the trainees; dayze, fafa, biha and aidil, zaid, eez, dina, atiel, yazree, mat, amir, wan lu.. muahahaha.. it’s like for the whole day we were overdose with laughter pills.. and after lunch we felt sleepy! wahahah.. i didn’t eat that much! on a diet! chewah! LOL already! but then maybe it’s bcoz i didn;t get the chance to sit down, i was bz distributing q’s and handling the codeframe for thailand branch.. so i didn’t feel as sleepy as wan lu.. kesian dier.. around 4 sumthing, she surrender already.. tired like hell! but then, we juz chat with her, among ourselves, juz to make sure all of us will not go to dreamland. i dun want to drink coffee, too many caffeine, gives me headache later.

i went and sit with wai peng and ai ling for a while.. it’s a relief juz talking to them about anything, usually office stuffs.. ahhaha.. anyway, it is my first job.. being a part time editor before i became the codeframer, so basically i dun wan to forgot my roots.. after settling the snow codes, we juz hang around and suddenly brought up the topic of our first day coming to work. ahahhahaha.. LOL.. we had some pretty good laughs there! it brought me back to the days when we would usually hang out together.. all of us.. the x-kec’s .. juz lepaking anywhere and re-live our life! ahaha.. it;s so good to have those best memories, the same goes to the ones i shared with mmu-ians, old frens, new frens.. close and not-close frens.. enemies.. ahahha.. all are memories that should not be forgotten.. even when i kene marah with my friend’s girlfren! gila la that one!

i went home early today bcoz didn;t to miss the ending of sindarela! aiyo.. complicated but simple! desicions desicions! on the way back, me, dayze and fei took a bus to bangsar and on the bus itself it was chaos! LOL! we laugh and laugh! i notice people were annoyed.. but for the first time in decades.. i just dun care! we joke and we laugh so hard.. we move with the bus.. there was one part where dayze was practically hanging from the pillar! bcoz the bus suddenly put on emergency break! i have to tahan her and fei as they were like plunging towards me! but then we were still laughing.. bcoz dayze was literally  hanging for a while LOL.. sampai bangsar, fei went to take lrt to KJ, me and dayze went on the other side.. she got off at kl sentral while i straight to gombak, took a taxi home.. and watch sindarella!

u can share ur laughter with one person or a group of people, juz share it with them and ur life will be brighter than ever! and today i was feeling good about myself and for the whole day i was thinking of my fren. kamu.. thank u for calling! really good to hear ur voice! miss ya! i finished uploading the pics and uploading sum new songs into my phone.. so am gonna stop here for a while.. who knows what tomorrow will bring.. even my horoscope was saying sumthing about appreciating the small things in life.. and yes.. we have too and dun take things and people for granted! it hurts!

so ok.. another day another blabber.. sayonara and take care!

ok.. so last week was near to hell and far from heaven.. from the first day of the week until the last day of the week (yesterday)… things just went wrong.. well.. some of it..

all my days and week was filled with me running back and fro giving out questionnaires to the editors.. and everyone seem so bloody selfish.. especially the RE’s.. not all of them but ader la a few which i won’t disclose their names here.. i was cursing almost everyday.. and really.. it;s becoming a habit.. and at the same time i don’t want to curse! from time to time.. i caught myself thinking about the old days.. about what happened .. all the laughs, all the happy things that happened and it made me smile a bit and look forward for new things in life.. but these dreams are wrecked by those selfishness portrayed in some people..  i get easily irritated and annoyed by minor and small remarks.. i would feel disgusted with the way they talk and act and most of all.. i was feeling very, very sakit hati!.. i’m not the type who likes to ungkit all the past.. but within my defense, if i have to, then i’ll do it without hesitation.. i can also pass sacarsm to people now.. which is a big leap for me.. bcoz the words just poured out by itself.. the other day i got a msg from an old x-colleague, asking how am i doing and stuff like that.. i said yeah, i’m ok.. just that i’m a bit bz nowadays.. then suddenly i got irritated by what she said..
‘ooh.. khabar-khabarkan berita pada kami, selalu la call kitorang..’ ermm.. seriously i was quite pissed off.. ntah lah.. nak kater tgh period.. i wasn’t.. maybe i was slightly hurt by the fact that why is it always me who has to be the one to make the move?! whether calling up frens, asking how r u, long time no hear.. that sort of stuff.. why me??! and if i did not call or make any shout out.. it looks like i’m the bad friend who doesn’t take any concern on what other frens are doing! why it should be me who have to make the calls, who repeatedly being asked and said to like.. ‘jgn la sepikan diri, calling2 la kitorang, biler nk buat gath lagik?’.. seriesly i once campak my phone on the desk when i got that msg.. i just dun care.. why do i have to make the calls, why don’t the other person make the calls.. things changed and people changed.. even though i don’t feel that i’ve changed.. but if i do, i hope it’s for the better.. how sorrowful this life can be if there’s only a one-way interaction between entities called FRIENDS.. but still.. i DO APPRECIATE ALL my beloved friends, as yes.. without them.. i won’t be here and won’t be the person i am today..  i must admit i have a large diversity of friends and people i know.. from studying to working life.. many many interesting, unimaginable, shocking people i’ve met and each of these people gives a new perspective to me..

people saw me smiling, laughing like i was having a good time. but inside i was tired and feeling empty.. i though i had everyone fooled but my best fren, anis, who became one of the part-timers.. suddenly asked yesterday.. ‘eh.. fared, naper ni? ko ader masalah ke? muka ko mcm ko tgh pk problem je..’ wow! that shook me a bit.. thankfully i didn’t cried when i told her what i was feeling and what happened and all.. (am not a crybaby, fyi.. )

yesterday takes its toll up from my hell week.. as i couldn’t go and see slync.. i was on the verge of crying and that is because of all the sakit hati and all the tiredness and all the energy that flows out in an enormous amount.. i even couldn’t take a taxi and again i was cursing.. in the end i was flushed out.. i haven’t got the energy to go on.. and just msg slync, i can;t make it, couldn’t get a taxi, go and see the movie with rahimah.. well.. it was unexpected, bcoz i didn’t know she was joining and was queuing to buy the tickets.. i was panicking when i didn’t get the taxi.. bcoz all that while in my head i just wanted to see my friend, after a long painful, stressful, idiotic week.. in the end.. it was nobody’s fault.. it just that God didn’t want me to go.. for some reason i think.

and thank you for being thoughtful for calling me back, i appreciated it and it was good hearing ur voice, my friend.. missed ya! (i think i’ve said it umpteen times!) >_<

well.. there’s much to say actually.. but am tired.. need to lie down a bit before doing my assignments.. i;m way past my due date this time..

and if anyone of u terasa or termakan hati with what i said.. hmm.. that was what i felt at that time..

c ya.. take care.. luv and sunshine always.. eventhough a good splash of rain always helps to calm the nerves..

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. penatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okeh.. disebabkan tak jumpa bukit kat sini.. walaupun tmpt ini berdekatan dengan bukit damansara! muahahaha.. missed u so damn much! muahahah lagik sekali.. hmm.. skrg ni mmg over the moon nyer bz.. sbb projek yg sangat giler ini.. muahah. dan aku skrg ni mampu .. ewah.. buat editing dan data entry! yahoo.. new skills new environment, new people, new procedure, new industry.. tidak lagik berada di takuk lama.. tp gaji aku still the same.. uhukk! tp.. at least welfare dijaga! huhuh.. allowance diberi, parking diberi.. ooo yeah! malas nk pk braper aku dpt by end of this month.. dah penat sangat2.. skrg ni asyik bergilir dengan amir, me colleague. tp ari ni kasik can la dier nk dating.. ahahahha.. aku igt nk ajak slync kuar, lama sudah nda jumpa… tp dier pun bz.. nk buat guano kan.. tkper.. ader rezeki leh jumpa len kali..

hmm.. semalam patutnyer ader gath dgn bebudak kec.. tp aku tak gi.. penat la.. naper buat 9 malam.. aku ni dah la tkder transport nk balik.. (dah start bising, dulu tkder lak aku nk bising2 balik lmbt).. haa.. agaknyer skrg dah lain.. keadaan dah berubah maybe? bukan aku nk memilih atau demand ader org anto balik… tp biler mlm tu.. kalo boleh aku nk dok je kat umah… lain la kalo aku dah kuar dr siang.. tkper la tu.. waaaa.. tp tak leh gak nk jumpa semalam sbb aku balik dr opis pun kul 6 lebih.. terus balik umah sbb papa, mama and angah amik kat sini.. so sorry guys tk dpt dtg.. anta la kad tu kat alamat umah en naley oi.. bukannyer mahal pun setem tu..

papa br balik dr nigeria and amsterdam.. nk sangat2 gi amsterdam, scotland, switz.. aku nk tgk dutch lady dengan windmill.. ahahah.. kalo sebelum ni asyik tgk kat tv and books jer.. haih.. ader rezeki boleh gi.. insya-allah.. hhehe.. ader satu keychain aku suka sangat.. round black key chain tulis amsterdam holland.. simple and nice..

okeh.. terasa nk buat serbei.. huhuk.. ni amik dr melal nih..

What is on your bed right now?
* load of things; textbooks, books, radio, wrapping paper..

When was the last time you threw up?
* hmm.. last week kot.. over eat.. bole?

What’s your favorite word or phrase?
* i mean… & aha.. & then.. & maybe.. & why..

Name 3 people who made you smile today?
* angah, me bro, slync

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
* i was still sleeping

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
* doing coding

What is your favorite holiday?
* serene places; switz, scot, anywhere in europe

Have you ever been to another country?
* does singapore count?

What is the last thing you said aloud?
* say what u need to sayyyyyyy.. (nyanyi lagu john mayer)

What is the best ice cream flavor?
*vanilla!

What was the last thing you had to drink?
* milo + mineral water

What are you wearing right now?
* shirt. jeans. tudung

What was the last thing you ate?
* cremo strawberry biscuit! sluurrrpppp!

Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
* nope.. a tudung yes..

When was the last time you ran?
* everyday

What’s the last sporting event you watched?
* euro

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
* a lake, with a jeti with green hills full of tulips and daisies, a small portion of bleeding hearts and one oak tree with orange fire colour leaves..

Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace?
* myspace tak layan sangat.. tp last sekali kasik msg kat syam kot..

Ever go camping?
* yes~

Do you have a tan?
* nope

Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
* i think so.. tp tk igt..

What is your guilty pleasure?
* nothing to be guilty of.. u wanna do anything, just do it!

Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
* nope

Do you drink your soda from a straw?
* dependo

What did your last text message say?
* nnt aku soh budak tu receive 1..

Are you someone’s best friend?
* is it? thank you..

What are you doing tomorrow?
* working

Where is your mom right now?
* at home

Look to your left, what do you see?
* a wall and uncle andy’s place

What color is your watch?
* silver

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
* sydney harbour and opera house, magnifico!

Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
* yes! i miss going on it!

What is your birthstone?
* some say opal, some say rose quartz

Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
* depends.. usually just go

Do you have any friends on myspace that you actually hate?
* ahahahhahaha.. not at the moment! i hope not!

Do you have a dog?
* nope

Last person you talked to on the phone?
*mama

Any plans today?
*wanna go back and hit on dawn of war soulstorm! ahah.. of coz, with a dosage of assignments and work

Are you happy?
* happy and missing

Where are you right now?
*office

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
*errmm.. can’t think of it rite now..

Last song listened to?
*beautiful disaster - jon McLaughlin

Last movie you saw?
* ironman… lama gilak

Are you allergic to anything?
* debu debu cinta.. wahahahahaha.. tak la. dust je..

Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
* sport shoes.. tp tak leh pakai dengan ofiswear lak..

Are you jealous of anyone?
* nope

Are you married?
* nope

Is anyone jealous of you?
* tk tau.. ader ke?? *wink wink*

Do any of your friends have children?
* yup!

Do you eat healthy?
* i would say no.. but trying to maintain.. ewah

What do you usually do during the day?
* runnning around between departments and meeting deadlines, writing codeframe and codings and briefing people.. challenging huh?

Do you hate anyone right now?
* no one i guess

Do you use the word ‘hello’ daily?
* only when picking up or dialing up a number

How many kids do you want when you’re older?
* tak tau la plak.. but i love twins!

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
* 26 baby!

Have you ever been to Six Flags?
* nope

How did u get one of your scars?
* one scar on the right knee sbb kene kaca.. the other one on the left sbb lari dan jatuh kat jalan batu kerikil masa sekolah rendah.. ganas.. masa panjat pokok tkder lak aku nk jatuh2.. muahahah