silveries

heyy.. last week was damn bad and exhausting and sucks! period! knowing all the bad stuff people have been saying behind ur back is really not cool man.. i mean.. what the?? i didn;t say anything about you .. why in the world you wanna talk bad things about me behind my back!? hello! earth to universe! c’mon la.. u want attention.. u create la.. but dun create s***ty things behind us la wei! seriously pity one of my colleague.. for all i know she never talk bad about anyone.. then suddenly.. out of the freakin’ blue.. this thing happen to her.. and then it start slowly creaping in on us! cheh.. seriously we can ungkit anything that we’ve done all this while for your sake.. but we decide to not do that.. we just don;t want to be YOU! we got better things to do and better things to achieve! you want to kipas the others, then kipas la..  i really wanna see until when you can kipas them!

hated when people take things for granted.. in front of people say all the sweet things.. behind our back, you put knives, racun and bagai to us! people dun respect you for that.. and i’m not even sorry for calling you a b****a.. dah la kaki ngadu.. sikit2 nk mengadu.. hishh..

fuh.. hilang sikit emosi yg ader tersimpan.. i;m just as easy as anyone knows me.. you respect me, i;ll respect you back.. if i respect you, i’ll expect you to respect me back.. if you still dun respect me even after that, then sorry to say, i dun give a damn on your existance! (yeah, i can be like that.. so dun push!) simple as that.. dun be so cocky! thinking that you know every bloody thing in this world!

ok dah.. for now..

ok.. hari ni hujan di waktu pagi yg menyebabkan aku terlajak tdo.. haha.. tp sekarang ni dah ader kat opis.. tak tau nk buat aper.. sbb keje tak sampai lagik.. and org pun kurang.. mereka2 di IS semua gi training.. tinggal aku, amir and bian hui.. haih.. bosan nyerr.. kene tunggu sampai kul 1 br la dpt jumpa bebudak tu.. haaa.. a few things happened lately.. and mmg mcm roller coaster ride gak.. i thank you so much to those yg sanggup mendgr and made me laugh and made my day! TQ so MUCH!

semalam erin ader kasik baca blog along (her friend), bukan along KEC ek.. ader this one tag dier kasik aku baca.. agak menarik.. and i had fun doing it.. and kelakar.. heheh.. so here i want to do the tag again.. bcoz yesterday was just for suka2 only.. hahaha.. this time i’ve put in all the songs; well not all.. but relatively more than enough for the tag.. hehe..

there a re a few conditions you have to follow before doing this and it involves music.. pratically the title of a song.. try it.. it’s fun, you really didn;t see it coming!.. ahahah..

Here are the rules:
1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS NO CHEATING!
4. Tag others.

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Terluka - Cokelat
ahaks.. yeah.. speaking my mind out

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Permanent - David Cook
yes.. very very permanent with myself

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
miss you love - silverchair
erkk.. freaky betul.. ahahah..

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
rolling star - Yui
yeah! keep on rolling!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Umbrella - mandy moore version
huhuhu.. being an umbrella to a person.. uiyo.. dasat

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Probably wouldn’t be this way - LeAnn Rimes
what?! ahahahah.. i love this song but huhhhh? ahahhahaha

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Gotta be somebody - Nickelback
hahaha.. right on!

WHAT IS 2+2?
empty - The Click Five
mathematical-wise, must have an answer.. but life-wise.. hey.. taktau nk ckp aper da.. :))

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
daydream- Avril Lavigne
yes.. the best day dream ever! listen to it! very2 nice! it’s a compliment!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF A PERSON YOU LIKE?
Ceritaku - Revalina
caner la lagu ni leh masuk playlist aku? but yeah i guess so.. wahahahah

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Girl on TV - LFO
mak aih! ahahah.. lagu lama ni siot.. but like it! so maknanyer aper? my life is all lakonan ke? hummmmm.. any pendapat lain? :p

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Without you - Hinder
the songs great, but wwaaa? ahahaha.. mcm tkder kene mengena jer

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Heroes - David Cook
tq for regarding me as a hero

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING?
crash and burn - Savage Garden
huhuhhuhu… ^_^ gilak aar.. go for it!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Gravity - Joe Inoue
this is all a coincedence! ahahah.. dem.. dgr la kpd sesaper yg tau lagu nih
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Aozora No Namida - Hitomi Takahashi
hee.. seriously no comment..
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
the diary of jane - breaking benjamin
erk.. diari.. dah lama tak simpan diari.. it’s all in my head and sum of my friends :p

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Masih - Estrella
masih ada dgr tawamu.. masih ada simpulan senyummu.. ahaha.. luv u guys and gals!

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
your star - All American Reject
yeah.. u see your stars la when u sakitkan my hati (giler bahasa rojak)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
voice on the radio - marie digby
ahaah.. DJ’s are the greatest to make you laugh until you cry.. long live DJ’s

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Believe - Tamaki Nami
yeah.. when u believe sumthing u can laugh about it..

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
No air - Jordin Sparks
ye la. tkder udara caner nk bernapas.. bukannyer makhluk 2 alam pun..

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Numb - Linkin Park
ok.. like.. erkk.. fuh..

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
i dare you to move - switchfoot
mak aih.. ganas!.. ahahaha

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
In this moment - David Archuletta ver.
hehe.. this superb song sums it all

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
matahariku - agnes monica
uiyooo! (tersenyap tak ckp aper..) wakak

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
I hate this part - Pussycat Dolls
huhuh.. yeah.. it hurts really really bad when we fell.. bole patah riuk..

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Here with me - Dido
ehehe.. dun change anything! u’r just fine dear me!

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
I need you - LeAnn Rimes
OMG! (muntah) well.. yeah i need you to give each month’s salary..

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Goodbye - Spice Girls
muahahahaha.. yeah.. i think this is goodbye.. for now!

haaa.. mcm bangang gak .. ntah aper aper yg kuar tak kene dgn soalan.. ahhaha.. give it a try.. it’s cool, enjoyable.. and sumwhat coincedential haha.. ok la.. nk sambung buat keje sat.. tetiba der keje…so better settle skrg.. enjoy ur day!

ahahaha.. tergelak baca horoskop utk hari ini.. ironi nya horoskop itu.. begini ya horoskop nya..

“You’ve been flirting with someone a lot — decide whether you’re serious or not.”

hampir gelak guling2 aku dibuatnya.. saper flirt dgn saper ek.. wahaha.. crazy! erm.. if given a choice.. for all the sake in the world; heaven and earth; mesti la serious kan?? aiyak.. ini macam bole siau lor.. am not saying that am believe in this thing.. it;s juz for fun.. but hey.. this one really is ironic and a bit sarcastic lei..

k lah.. tu je .. ta ta..

terharu mendengar dan melihat klip video carrie underwood berjudul Just a dream.. hari ini bertambah terharu lah kamu ..

aku mimpi.. kawan baik kamu memberitahu sesuatu tentang kamu dgn dia… peritnya apa yang kawan kamu bgtau tu walaupun dalam mimpi.. nantilah bila aku rasa hendak tanya pada kamu, akan aku tanya. kamu juga tahu aku sentiasa tanya terus pada kamu, kan?

hari ni hampir-hampir kena marah.. dan aku nak bercerita dengan kamu.. tapi… seperti biasa.. hari ini berlalu dgn sempoi nya..

* this post is seriously dictating i’m in a crucial mood where i can do anything to hurt myself..
a part of me is going crazy and my other half (my concious) is keeping me sane for now…

Am also in love with this song!

Staind - Tangled Up In You

You’re my world
The shelter from the rain
You’re the pills
That take away my pain
You’re the light
That helps me find my way
You’re the words
When I have nothing to say

And in this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you

You’re the fire
That warms me when I’m cold
You’re the hand I have to hold
As I grow old
You’re the shore
When I am lost at sea
You’re the only thing
That I like about me

And in this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you

How long has it been
Since this storyline began
And I hope it never ends
And goes like this forever

In this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
Tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you

it’s new year! wow.. masa berjalan tanpa henti dgn pantasnya! tp aku rasa mcm biasa je.. ahahha.. ok.. so the difference is aku kat kampeni baru, doing a job which is 50-50 related to what i studied and am studying.. honestly i was depressed for the past few months.. i dunno know why.. it’s normal for a person who’s depressed says that.. bcoz they could not point which is the problem.. so was i.. but then.. i perked up.. and my other half was saying.. dun think about things which you dun know will happen or not.. just be prepare for it.. work for it..

i wanted to take a break this sem, but my prof wants me to continue.. so after giving it some thoughts.. ok.. i;m going to take this sem.. hopefully all will be well.. it’s hard enough for me to earn as much as i did last month.. and fortunetly, alhamdulillah.. i did made a bit to pay for the fees.. fuh.. and i had the luxury to spent for my mum, my sis and my bro.. i shared with my bro a resident evil DVD.. bcoz mainly we haven’t got an original dvd.. so why not.. we share 50-50.. then we bought a dvd player.. at long last.. we have a dvd player; believe it or not.. i was thinking of buying one for my dad as the one in Putra got busted.. but first, my mums’ birthday is coming up.. so dunno what to buy her .. maybe the usual.. flowers, cake.. but what else.. ? i opted to make a cross stitch.. but i have to buy the materials first..then it would be easy..

i heard a friend to a friend of mine juz open a cafe.. and.. i juz can;t explain the feelings i had when i heard that.. and eventually after that, i got kinda offended and terkilan and terkecik hati with one of my pals.. well… i dunno know why.. maybe i was looking for support and my pal wasn’t giving any… i called up very good friend of mine yesterday and juz talking on the phone made my head clear and i could think straight and see where i was going.. i was terharu when my friend said sumthing which i didn;t even realize anyone would have thought and it was spot on with what i’m feeling at the time..

i want to achieve something out of my norm.. i dun want to stay at the same place forever.. now that am taking masters is one ticket to a better position and life; insys-allah… bcoz my degree grades doesn;t help much.. and then i can think of making my other dreams come true.. i can see my path.. but it is rocky and it’s still high up.. but i know am getting there…

and what helps me when am not in a good mood..  music! it just lightens up the whole life and helps that good feeling inside come bursting out..

i found Cokelat’s album and the songs are cool and fluttery! i love it!

this is one of the songs i really really like to listen and relate to it. the title is “Tak Berujung” which means no ending. whe i first saw the title.. i thought it must be a normal song without much emotional effect on me.. but the moment i listen.. ahahaha.. i melted! it’s a lovely song.. and here’s the lyric

Tak kan pernah ada yang bisa sepertimu
Kau lah matahari menyinari hati
Setiap waktu

Semua yang telah kau berikan
Tak kan hilang

Slalu menyertaiku dalam
Setiap langkah

Dirimulah satu cinta sejati
tak berujung

Well.. ok.. wanna watch Jigoku Shoujo!

haa.. ermm.. aper nk tulis.. ok.. skrg ni aku rasa cam ader sikit freedom la.. sbb dha abih kelas.. cuma ader a few adjustments to my assignment yg di mana aku rasa mcm .. ishh.. nak kene perbaiki lagik tp aku mcm penat dan malas sikit. tp kene la gak buat sbb nnt markah kurengg… !

another thing.. aku ni dah lama tak membaca.. dan aku rindu sesangat nk membaca.. selalunyer one week for book.. tp sekarang ni.. nk pegang buku pun susah.. kalo magazine tu.. selalunyer tak sampai 15 minit aku bole abih.. skrg ni amik masa dekat sebulan br nk baca!.. hampas tul.. hmm ye rla.. maner tak nyer.. balik keje je dah penat.. ntah aper yg penat aku pun tak sure.. but for the past one week and this week.. seriously it’s hectic! everyone wants their project to close before krismas.. and we are all at our wits end, even Fafa pun geram and luahkan perasaan semalam and tadi.. kesian gak kt dier.. so just lend an ear jer la utk dier.. hopefully i can finish my codeframe by this friday to give to the researcher (my original plan is this thursday.. hopefully can make it too), because i can look up to another project also.. i just noticed i got two projects closing this friday.. ughh.. this thursday i also got two projects closing.. and next monday another two projects closing.. erkk. busy week ahead!

am now on my bed with my laptop.. ahaha.. this is the life.. listening to radio.. i’m now a flyfm fan.., maybe because i’m doing the group assignment with them so i have to observe and do research on them.. but it was worth it.. i got the experience to go into a konti and met with the DJ’s.. so cooll .. !

talk about not having a book to read.. there’s a lot of new books i wantewd to buy and read,, of coz.. so the other day.. i went to klcc with my brother to pay the insurance… then wewent to kinokuniya.. it was there i think i got a glimpse of melor.. my ex-classmate during uni years.. i got so hooked up with all the books.. i didn’t know which one to buy.. so i scout around.. and! i found darren shan’s new book.. it’s called Wolf Island.. straight away i picked it up and held to it.. darren shan is my current favourite author! then i scout again.. and found coraline.. i wanted so much that book.. but i want the story version.. the only one they have is the graphic novel.. then i found another one of neil gailman’s book called “The Graveyard Book”.. so immediately i bought it.. then i bought a book for my sis.. so initially we have the complete set of diablo book! so i got 3 books in my hand now.. then i scout for mags for my mom.. then straight away i went to pay.. i know it’ll cost me a fortune for that.. but i just dun care.. i want to buy a book! haaa.. the total cost is 100++! ahahaha.. but tkper.. as my mom say.. if it’s for a good cause then it’s ok.. and buying books is one of it.. sumday i’ll do a mini library and yesss.. one of my dream is that.. ! apart from having a very cool house and lots of movies! yeah!
huhu.. sleeppyyy.. ok la.. stop here la for now.. daa

ok.. alu all! hmm.. actually dah 2 bulan lebih rupanyer aku tak tulis aper aper ek kat sini.. muahaha.. sorry laaa.. bz giler! well.. selain dr tu aku cam malas nk tulis.. sbb it won;t change any facts or anything but only it calm my moods..

truthfully a lot .. i mean.. zillion billion things happen and much of it are sakit hati, sakit jiwa, craziness, boredom, but all in all, one memory kept me going.. and.. well.. it does until now.. if i’m feeling angry or tak puas hati or sakit hati, i can;t reach out to any photos of my friends from KEC; erin, zul, rizal, lee, jeme, fatin, naley; just to name a few.. but relying on my memory to remember all the great things we’ve been through together.. all the hardships, the laughters, the tears, the smiles, the twist in each other’s life..  come to think of it, it’s rather fascinating.. i was looking back at the photos we took way back when we were at KEC.. it’s like going through a time warp, looking back at me, at them years ago! looking back, at that time we did not know what the future holds for us, but now we know.. we cannot go back and say to ourself, “hey, don;t do that, u’ll end up hurting yourself!” .. i;m not Hiro, u know.. every single person has changed, and most are married and got kids! hahaha.. a reality check for me too.. am not getting young, but not getting old either, so where am i?.. made some resolution and am going for it.. really dun care what other people say.. and honestly.. having a bf or marriage is the last thing on my mind even though, yeah.. i am starting to skimp and save for the future..

juz uploaded a few pics from the annual dinner! haha.. it was kinda fun, bcoz this is the first company’s annual dinner i went and interesting how it felt.. we got a theme and that was Brand! darn, i voted for superhero! ahaha. we had to dress up as a brand, example, Digi.. so you have to come as a yellowman! I opted for anna sui, the doll-like version.. but the scavenger hunt for a doll-like dress is a bummer! i did find a blouse which is not me at all, but i liked it! another dreadful thing was i had to sing at the annual dinner! :O oo.. juz get me out of there, i screamed in silence! thankfully there was a karaoke set courtesy from Allen! Me, fafa and wan lu sang “Seasons in The Sun” and i figured i might as well have fun rather than not have fun.. so i blocked all the stage fright and jitters, and just sang! ahaha.. the things that was helping me was of course, having to sing with fafa and wan lu, the memory of karaoke-ing with my friends and i love the song to bits.. got a few pictures with the gals and guys of RI.. and got a picture with Thompson and Chris! ahhaa.. like talking to Chris, bcoz he’s so peramah and his laughter is like a happy virus to all the people who happen to hear his laughter! Thompson is cute! and he talks fast!

Chris sang Umbrella by Rihanna by popular demand.. and seriously it brings back memory when i went to see marie digby at OU.. we were singing Umbrella, and yeah.. when Chris guide us at the chorus, we sang! The joy of knowing the song and the moment is special making it more memorable and heart-warming! ohh.. and Chris’s voice was fabulous!!!! i record it a few seconds and i kept watching it over and over again! ahahah.. Yazree also sang Man Bai’s song and Richard Marx’s Now and Forever!

ooohh.. the time! have to get sum sleep! ermm.. ok la.. if got time , i’ll continue ya it’s juz been a hectic week extremely bz as i;m juggling between work and study and life!
guten nacht!

“Help someone you love make changes — convince them that anything is possible.”

erm.. that would be what my horoscpoe says for today.. hmm.. ironically.. the one i love is nowhere to be found… yet. ermm.. i suppose it doesn’t relate to only bf or gf but also families and frens.. ok.. the main question is.. whom do i love? be it a fren, an enemy? erghh.. no way! hmm.. a stranger? cheesy..

still at the office.. actually waiting for zaid to come and pick up atiel.. she had a major stomachache and couldn’t walk properly.. so ala.. kesian la plak nk tinggal sesorang.. hmm.. now i;m sitting at her place.. seriously her keyboard is much better than mine hmm.. she’s asleep at m-strat room, and eez fallen asleep beside me here on the table.. kesian.. ari nih dier kene jaga grup.. haa.. researchers are very busy nowadays.. haih.. time2 nk raya ni la byk projek masuk.. tkper.. at least i got work to do.. and today was quite hectic.. ahaha.. dah lama tak lari2 anak dlm opis.. tu pun sbb one of the execs half day.. hmm.. tp ok la.. not much yg happen la.. juz that i was feeling down a bit.. dunno why.. hmm.. mcm malas nk pk psal sesaper.. cuma nk pk pasal diri sendiri jer.. huhu..

this sunday start class d.. fuh. .cepatnyer msa berlalu.. hopefully i can take the tesis.. pleaseeeeee.. but seriously dah tkder tenaga and mood nk study.. maybe sbb dah dkt penghujung.. so dinamik and momentum of studying tu dah nk abih.. lgpun terasa mcm tak cayer je dh masuk final sem.. huhuh… i already set one massive target for myself before or when i reach 30.. and no, it’s not to get married, mind u.. ader la sumthing.. i juz want to bear it in mind.. if i got what i wanted during those period.. then i can think about marriage.. tp kiter cuma rancang.. Tuhan yg tentukan.. btul tak? haa.. yer la.. mcm skrg nih pun.. byk kali je aku plan.. tp tak jd.. hmm.. ade hikmahnyer kot.. but dunno why skrg ni asyik tak larat jer.. tak cukup rehat ke.. seriously tak tau.. it’s like aku dah gunakan semua energy yg ader sebelum nih.. and skrg ni mcm dah burn out.. but hey.. my mind won’t stop thinking.. skrg ni aku cam pk nk kumpul duit.. so mmg tiap2 bulan skimp and save.. byk benda yg aku nk beli aku pk seribu kali nk beli ke tak.. hmm.. tp kalau aku nk beli .. aku beli la.. camtuh.. cuma aku pk.. berbaloi ke aku beli nnt.. and aku ni dah la cerewet when it comes to shoes, clothes and pants.. huhu..

(lamanyer si zaid ni balik amik kete.. aku pun dah ngantuk dah nih.. ) balik rasa mcm nk main ps2.. tp tgk la caner.. esok sabtu.. lisha ajak gi beli baju kurung kat ampang.. hmm.. ok gak.. aku dah lama tak jumpa lisha.. and dah lama tak go out during weekends… so maybe it’s a good thing for me to go out for a while.. since the last time aku jumpa slync.. aku rasa aku dah tak kuar dah..  apatah lagi jumpa bebudak ex-kec.. jauh panggang dr api.. mmg lama giler tak jumpa.. and then ader sumthing yg buat aku kecik hati yg diroang.. haih.. sorry la guys.. tp aku mmg kecik hati biler dpt tau pasal gath tu.. hmmm.. but that’s another story.. i’ll continue la biler aku ade mood.. ok la.. mau baliks.. zaid pun dah sampai nk pick up atiel.. and i have to call a taxi.. ok la yer.. tata..

okeh.. huhuh.. selamat pagi cikgu! wahahaha.. kalau tak tgk lagi upin ipin.. gi la tgkk.. ahaha.. hilang tensen! haaa.. aku dah la tgh bajet giler2 ni.. bkn nk kawin pun.. tp ntah la.. risaunyer dgn keadaan sekrg.. hmm.. aper lagik nk merepek nih.. disebabkan skrg ni aku agak meluat dgn seseorang.. aku sampai malas nk amik tau dah.. haa.. jgn la bimbang pada yg tertanyer2 tu.. bukan anda.. tp org lain di tmpt kerja ku.. haaa.. jeng jeng jeng.. haih.. so aku skrg ni malas nk layan dier.. huhu.. yer la.. orang ‘pandai’ kan.. nk buat caner kan..  hehe.. okeh.. sebleum aku start buat keje (mcm la aku ader keje ari ni nk buat)..  meh aku buat survey.. aku amik dr si melal..

14. Would you date/hook up with your brothers best friend?
:: ahha.. no way! bcoz i dun have a brother